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Tuesday, December 2nd, 2008
3:48 pm	bloggin not sure howw i feel about bloggiing these days... i heard of this one blogspot called tumblr...whats up with the no E that really bothers me for some reason...i already have a problem with spelling why somebody trying  to make it harder for me out therecrap more on this later my battery bout to die (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 29th, 2008
8:26 am	almost 3 years since i have posted anything on here.....somethings have changed but mostly stayed the same! does anybody still look at this? Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 26th, 2005
2:42 am	cruise? when did a cruise become a realtionship breaker? should i let the realtion ship that i put sooo much in to sink or should go sit on and island? far away from everything just for me to be with me! shit is cazy! when will it ever be normal? maybe normal is a myth? Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: johnny cash - folsom prisom blues (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 13th, 2005
3:49 am	wow tonight was pretty sweet but now i am wide awake and tired at the same time. i hate going out, it takes too much of a toll on me! Current Mood: old Current Music: in the ghetto - elvis baby (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 6th, 2004
10:09 pm	it is my 21st birthday in 2 hours! finally! whooo hoooo (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 27th, 2003
3:10 pm	sleep with one eye open from now on today has been sooo hetic i am still running all i have left to do though is go to work. but my neck is killing me like it was last year on my birthday, i just get sooo stressed out that i pull something in it i guess. this weekend was alright, i never really do much on the weekends anymore because i am always busy or tired out because of school and work. but i had fun. i got drunk and tried to rent porn, and drank a bottle of whiskey with out having too much of a hangover. and talked to kari. she mentioned about moving back here and maybeher and i being roomates, i think that would be awesome except we would totally party too much, but i don't see much harm in that we are young mighht as well do it now. ok i guess no more entry for now. byebye! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
3:10 pm	sleep with one eye open from now on today has been sooo hetic i am still running all i have left to do though is go to work. but my neck is killing me like it was last year on my birthday, i just get sooo stressed out that i pull something in it i guess. this weekend was alright, i never really do much on the weekends anymore because i am always busy or tired out because of school and work. but i had fun. i got drunk and tried to rent porn, and drank a bottle of whiskey with out having too much of a hangover. and talked to kari. she mentioned about moving back here and maybeher and i being roomates, i think that would be awesome except we would totally party too much, but i don't see much harm in that we are young mighht as well do it now. ok i guess no more entry for now. byebye! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 1st, 2003
8:04 pm	are you ready to funk? man i wished i would stop getting so upset with drew but some of the shit he does really pisses me off and i guess the reason i get more mad than i should is so that he understands not to do it again, but i do not think this method is working very well cause here i sit hungry while him and asshole(his friend) are drinking 40's when there could be better things he could doing me. like we had planned man this shit is lame. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: bad conversation with drew (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 26th, 2003
11:09 pm	school fool it is weird to be back in school. i am sort of excited but i always am when school first starts. i really do have to do better this semester or i get kicked out of vcu for five years and that would really suck big time. speaking of sucking work was shitty tonight it was pretty slow until we were about to close and i had this really bad big table with a woman at it that i wanted to reach over and bitch slap sooooo bad. but i got through it and it is over. now i just have to try to get to sleep sober. Current Mood: out of it Current Music: place in your heart - tracy chapman (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 10th, 2003
10:51 am	My goddamn rock solid ghetto shiznit name is Ass Machine Teapot, Yo. What's yours? Powered by Rum and Monkey. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 8th, 2003
3:43 am	til the early morning light, help me make it through the night wow what a wild time i have had lately, shit has been insane. this weekend felt like 3 weeks long. it was fun tho don't get me wrong. i met another guy he is cool but very different from me. i feel bad tho because tonight he showed up at jareds show but jared is the one that said he wanted an open relationship and thats whats going on but i know tomorrow morning i am gonna feel so bad for exposing him to that shit. spaeaking of exposing i went to the titty bar tonight that i danced at for a while it was insane i m so glad i got out of that lifestyle i loked at those girls and felt sooooo bad for them. anyway i am really confused right now but of course my head is not clear right now. watch tommmorw i am goona have a break down post. but i hope not . i need very badly to think posittive about life and motly about myself. Current Music: baby let's play house - elvis (Comment on this)
Monday, July 7th, 2003
12:00 am	chesarox's LiveJournal Slut Stats The below percentages indicate what chesarox has done with the 12 people on her friends list! met 100.0% hugged 83.3% dated 0.0% kissed 25.0% seen topless 33.3% seen naked 33.3% phone sexed 0.0% made out 8.3% oral sex 0.0% fucked 0.0% What are your LiveJournal Slut Stats? Sponsored via Adult Friend Finder. Keep this meme and others like it checking it out or getting free account! You may meet the match of your dreams! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 2nd, 2003
1:57 am	one more night in richmond i think i might have burned some bridges in the past few days. i feel bad about it all a little, but my friends need to understand where iam , how lonely i am. i don't think they know how much i need them, yeah they need me for entertainment but i need them for support and it seems as every time i reach out there is no one there..... i need someone to be there i need a friend. i guess it just upsets me cause when somebody needs me i am always there i guess it is not a 2 way street. i don't know what to do about it. latley i have tried to hold it all back but now i have become jaded and an asshole about it all. i feel like sleep is the only way to go. i fear waking up, i guess i just fear reality. make fun of me if you want, i am used to it! Current Mood: lonely Current Music: counting crows - anna begins (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 24th, 2003
4:56 pm	chesarox Magic Number 15 Job Serial Killer Personality Procrastinator (If The Apathy Doesn't Kill Me) Temperament Sweet Natured Sexual Whatever, Whenever, Whoever Likely To Win The Booker Prize Me - In A Word Genius Colour Brought to you by MemeJack (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 21st, 2003
12:06 am	jared hasn't called in 2 days....... i bet he met someone new. (Comment on this)
Monday, June 16th, 2003
6:03 pm	i want to destroy everything fuck this feeling, why do i want to smash faces? why do i want to do it while i cry? i hate this time of the month. it makes me so fucking evil. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 28th, 2003
12:04 am	you keep bouncing around like a rubber ball today was such a bad day. i didn't get anything done that i needed to do. i cried some too and said and thought things that i should not have. i don't know whats wrong with me. i think i just need to get a job and destress about shit. i will not let myself live like this. this feeling is only temporary. Current Mood: cranky Current Music: tomorrow night - lavern baker (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 27th, 2003
3:01 am	welcome to my world with you in mind i don't know what is happening. tonight was fun went to chucks birthday party it was rad. tried to hang out but it didn't work out as planned but does it ever? anyway it was good times. i am learning how to sleep by myslef again even tho i have the urge to call a boy to just sleep next to me with nothing else involved but what boy would do that none that i know of. anyway tommorrw is a new day and maybe a new out look. Current Mood: drunk Current Music: if i can dream - elvis (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 25th, 2003
10:47 pm	i broke up with my boyfriend i had and i felt so free and happy. things seemed to be going my way it was unreal. then it was like i woke up one day and everything was the way it used to be months ago. i do not understand that nor do i accept it. i should have grown and learned things in all this time that has passed.maybe i have maybe thats why i have this urge to slow things down a little. Current Mood: blank Current Music: secret garden (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 14th, 2003
2:28 am	i am going to grace land memphis tennense well tommorow i go to grace land i am very nervous but extremly excited. tonight was weird i talked to someone i am starting to care about but i didn;t get to say goodbye or anything. i hope things are still waiting fo rme when i get back. i also talked to someone else who has fucked me over in the past i was gona go over to his house but i dodn't i guess it was the best thing to do , but i still feel bad that i didn't call or anything, no matter how mean someone is to me i still feel the neeed to respect them which is good i guess? man so much other drama went down tonight but it is too much all for me to type. all i have left to say is which me a good trip please! Current Mood: nervous Current Music: heat shaped world - chris issac (1 Comment |Comment on this)